Scout's New Face & Rad New Life

Help me give my mannish mug a femme finish.
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Scout Wolfcave
Health
Bloomington, Indiana
United States
1 Team Member

Who am I?

I'm Scout Wolfcave and I am a radical Geographer, an adventure instructor, and a friend to many rad folks. I'm also a transgender woman, meaning that although I was assigned male at birth, this does not match true gender identity. I have been transitioning to live as a woman since December of 2012 and have been on hormone replacement therapy (HRT) since January 2013.

For the next THIRTY DAYS I am asking for help in funding my facial feminization surgery, which is scheduled for December 17th, 2013. Read on for heavy-duty details.

What I need:

Unfortunately, my body was ravaged by 30 years of androgens (male hormones), which left me with a massive Adam's apple, a large face, a receding hairline, and a height of 6'3". The anti-androgens that I take block the testosterone that my body produces, and my bi-weekly injections of estrogen are causing my body develop female secondary sex characteristics. Also, the presence of estrogen and the lack of testosterone helps me feel at ease, mentally. Sadly, these blockers and hormones will not do anything to alter my bone or cartilage structure, and the hair has only marginally reappeared. And I am not shrinking. Combined, these persistent features present a problem for me because no matter how hard I try, there are many moments where I still see a man staring back at me in the bathroom mirror. And other people oftentimes do not see me as the woman I am, and that hurts, deeply. I need people to stop automatically assuming that I am male, and I need to see a woman in the mirror from now on, for my own sake. 

This is kind of uncomfortable for me to look at, but note my large Adam's apple, nose, and receding hairline:

Additionally, there are times where I do not feel safe walking alone, or even with friends, as I have been called out multiple times by strangers on the street, have had men in bars target me with their misogynistic and transphobic aggression, and was even assaulted by group of men in STL for not "wearing the right clothes." It is terrifying, humiliating and demoralizing, and while I know it is not my responsibility to alter my appearance to fit societal standards, doing so would make me feel safer and also better about my own body.

Luckily there are surgical procedures that can help me by matching my appearance and self-perception. On December 17th, 2013 I will have Facial Feminization Surgery (FFS) performed by Dr. Barry Eppley in Indianapolis at a procedural cost of $20,510. He will bring my hairline down and my brows up, fix my thrice-broken nose with a septo-rhinoplasty, narrow my jaw, and do a tracheal shave to reduce the laryngeal prominence (adam's apple). Combined, these procedures will give my face an overall more feminine appearance by softening my male features, bringing them more in line with what people subconsciously identify with as female. After I am recovered, I will be able to go back to teaching in January comfortably presenting as a woman. There is nothing in the world that would make me happier than that.

Please understand that this is not a cosmetic surgery for me, but a necessary and crucial step I must take in order to continue on in my life.

The Quote from my Surgeon:

Here's the rub: My student health-care plan (Aetna) will not cover any trans-related health care expenses. This year they have already redacted their coverage of most of my medications and necessary tests (like blood hormone levels), and have generally been very unpleasant to deal with. I am having to pay the FFS on my own, as well as all of my medications except for one anti-androgen (spirolactone). Additionally, any future surgical procedures will also be out of pocket expenses for me, which is really depressing, as I just don't have the money. I am a PhD student that makes very little and as much as my parents would like to help me with the costs of the operation, they just are not in a position to do so.

Why am I doing this so soon? The next available time that I could have this done would be July 2014 and I just don't know if I can wait that long. 31 years is already too long to be mistaken for a guy.

What you get:

 Ya'll, peep my perks and marvel at all the neat stuff you can have just by helping me be happy! In addition to having my eternal gratitude and the being able to carry the feeling of legitimately helping someone be truly ecstatic, you can get these totally tubular things:

  • You could be thanked in a book! (Tell me ur name!)
  • You could get an illustrated opinion in the mail! (Ask me your question by sending me a message through here OR by going to my facebook page and leavin' your question on my wall.)
  • You could get a signed comic!
  • You could get props in a genuine internet video! (Tell me who you are!)
  • You can get "the best shirt!"
  • You can help design an RPG dad!
  • I'll fix your dang ol' bike!
  • I'll take you backpacking!
  • OMG I'll even fucking cook for you!

Check out what people have to say about my cooking:

"I have eaten dozens of Scout's meals. Most of them involved spam or ramen cooked on a camp stove. Her inventiveness with the foulest of America's foodstuffs is astounding, you should see what she can do with real ingredients and a fully-equipped kitchen." -Laura Palmer (S.K.), "professional food eater"

"I have slung pizza for over 8 years- never have I tasted a pie as complete, as savory and as good as Scout's. There are people who open up restaurants to make a living, and then there are those who are born with a certain gift for cuisine-who at all costs must not be shackled to an establishment less it taint the spirit and flavor of all creation." -Les Duffield

"An evening in the kitchen with Scout is a culinary adventure. The food, which is always incredibly delicious and well-executed, is only part of the experience. She's a master of the kitchen and excellent company. Any meal with Scout is going to be mouth-watering, entertaining, and just down-right pleasant." -Mel Banks

"Deep and rich flavors, attention to detail and presentation, and never skimping on quality are my favorite aspects of Scout's amazing meals... I always feel as if I am eating at an authentic restaurant." -Meredith Strunk


After the Deadline:

If I don't reach my goal: I will attempt to take out as many lines of credit as possible to have FFS done. If I can't raise the money, then I will have to attempt to reschedule to next summer, or risk losing my $500 deposit.

If I surpass my goal: The price for my surgery is $20,510, yet I am only asking for $12,500. Why? Because of an Indiegogo policy that states that "We charge a 4% fee if you reach your goal, and a 9% fee if you don’t." Basically, in order for the money to actually go for a good cause (my surgical procedures) and not to this website, I set my goal lower than what I actually need. So please donate past the target goal if possible! However, if I meet my funding goal, but don't exceed it, I am confident that I will be able to cover the remainder with credit cards.

Stretch goal: If I surpass the cost of the actual procedure, I will use the extra money to pay for an orchiectomy, which I will have done in Detroit with Dr. Arnkoff at an estimated cost of $2500 plus travel and lodging. Having this done would be a huge relief for me, as I would no longer need to take such large doses of anti-androgens, which are extremely hard on my liver and kidneys. Additionally, the psychological impact of getting rid of a piece of my anatomy that I despise ("the boys") will be significant.

Accountability of funds: All money raised in this campaign will be put into a dedicated savings account at my credit union, and will only be spent on the surgeries and their associated recoveries. Documentation of spending and the account balance will be posted in the updates section. Basically, I'm not gonna blow the money on cheeseburgers.

Leftover funds: All leftover funds will be donated to the Sylvia Rivera Law Project (srlp.org), an awesome and decidedly radical non-profit that works to guarantee that all people are free to self-determine gender identity and expression, regardless of income or race, and without facing harassment, discrimination or violence. 

Other Ways You Can Help

I know that not everyone can donate money, I totally understand! However, even without a monetary contribution, you can help spread the word by sharing my campaign on your own social media empire! Boost! Go!

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  • $4USD
    Acknowledging ur Generosity

    As part of being a PhD student, I'm writing a book. This book is going to be, roughly, about how capitalism views radical queer and trans communities as an intrinsic opposition to capital accumulation, until these communities can be "safely" subsumed as a commodified culture. In the front of this book, there will be an acknowledgement and thanks page, and YOU will earn a spot on that page! You, my friend, will forever be cemented into the annals of radical queer & trans academia.

    26 claimed
    Estimated delivery: August 2015
  • $8USD
    "Ups" on the Internet

    You'll get acknowledged and gratuitously thanked on via tumbler and/or twitter with an accompanying electronic media medley (photo / drawing / cartoon / sound byte).

    5 claimed
    Estimated delivery: December 2013
  • $15USD
    "Big Ups" on the Internet

    You will be the subject of a momentous and sweeping youtube video in which I sing your praises, perhaps literally. I will do this while modeling thrifted outfits, riding my bike, making pizzas, walking around the block, eating nachos, or some other assorted activity.

    23 out of 300 claimed
    Estimated delivery: January 2014
  • $25USD
    Letters from a Nihilist

    Have you ever wanted to have concrete proof of my rotten opinions? Now is your chance! All you have to do is ask me a question of about a thing, and I will tell you how I feel about that thing in the most nihilistic of ways. Other ideologies that will probably influence my answer: feminism, anarchism, environmentalism, pizza. As a bonus: I will include a small drawing in the envelope to illustrate my opinions. I have opinions that you can have in writing.

    32 out of 200 claimed
    Estimated delivery: February 2014
  • $30USD
    "FRIED EVERYTHING" party

    This gets you admission to a "fried-whatever-the-fuck-you-want" party at my house, in Bloomington. I'll set up a "whatever fryer," a veggie fryer, and a vegan fryer. I'll fry ANYTHING*. You bring it, I'll bread it and slam it into a hot vat of fat until golden fucking brown. All you can drink beer included. *Must be "food"

    0 out of 50 claimed
    Estimated delivery: April 2014
  • $40USD
    SALE *The Best Shirt*

    You'll get a t-shirt. The front will feature a stylized rendition of my NEW FACE (that you helped create!) and will be labeled "CYBERQUEER GENDERCOMMANDO" in a pleasing black metal-esque font. The back will have the Videodrome quote "long live the new flesh" printed between the shoulder-blades. You won't get anything BUT a t-shirt tho~

    3 out of 50 claimed
    Estimated delivery: January 2014
  • $40USD
    Punk Rock BBQ

    On the first hot weekend of the year get nearly naked (short shorts and kuttes, duh), listen to hardcore, and burg out. Everything will be provided: Beer, punk rock, chef level food, dumb tattoos, skateboards, dogs, B.O., posi-vibes, lawn games, naps under trees, etc. This will probably go down in May and if we do it at my place, we'll def have a bonfire too!

    2 out of 50 claimed
    Estimated delivery: May 2014
  • $50USD
    Signed Comic from Penina!

    My homie Penina is a super rad cartoonist, and they are making a little tiny comic about little tiny Scout, when I was but a diminutive child. We will send a signed copy to you along with a personalized note! Check out her work here: http://www.penina.net/

    16 out of 20 claimed
    Estimated delivery: January 2014
  • $65USD
    CELEBRITY SKIN

    I'll draw a naked picture of a celebrity of my choosing, on archival quality paper, in ink (probably), package it, and send it to you. Will you end up with Bruce Willis or Phyllis Diller? Donate and get a saucy surprise in your mailbox!

    0 out of 25 claimed
    Estimated delivery: April 2014
  • $75USD
    The Best Shirt

    You'll get a t-shirt. The front will feature a stylized rendition of my NEW FACE (that you helped create!) and will be labeled "CYBERQUEER GENDERCOMMANDO" in a pleasing black metal-esque font. The back will have the Videodrome quote "long live the new flesh" printed between the shoulder-blades. I'll also include a personalized note and a drawing and I'll give you "Ups on the Internet!"

    18 out of 75 claimed
    Estimated delivery: January 2014
  • $125USD
    Bicycle tune-up (locals only)

    In addition to be a PhD student and an adventure guide, I'm also a bike mechanic and would be pleased to tune up your bike for you IF YOU ARE IN the Bloomington, IN area. This is perf~ after a harsh continental winter! At this donation level I will put new cables and housings on your bike, clean everything, re-lube the bearings, adjust IT ALL to perfection, and make sure it rides like a super rad dream (the best dream!) You will need to bring me your bike in order for this to be real.

    5 out of 20 claimed
    Estimated delivery: April 2014
  • $150USD
    Mantle Jockey

    You're gonna get a big ol' trophy, replete with your name and a little plaque that might say "Thanks 4 helpin' me be a beautiful woman" or it might have a quote from Roseanne. It could also have an etching of an IROC-Z doing a burnout instead of any text; this is symbolic. You will also get "Ups on the Internet" and a handwritten letter and maybe some surprise items at this level.

    2 out of 10 claimed
    Estimated delivery: March 2014
  • $200USD
    Chef 4 U~ (Locals Only)

    So I'm also a good cook! Like very good! I will travel up to 1 hour outside of Bloomington and cook you dinner sometime within the next year. You pick the cuisine and reimburse me for the ingredients, I make the menu, prepare it, eat it with you, then I split. I hate doing dishes. Sorry. Dinner conversation: Dark forests, time travel, destroying reality, hamburger restaurants, and truck jumps.

    1 out of 10 claimed
    Estimated delivery: December 2014
  • $500USD
    Chef 4 U~ (Regional Edition)

    This is like the locals only perk, except more expensive and I'll travel up to 4 hours from Bloomington to cook you dinner. The same rules and restrictions apply. Dinner conversation: Air disasters, nuclear war, bottomless pits, the world's oldest tree, moldy couches, the sound of the void, burning tires, Tremors.

    1 out of 4 claimed
    Estimated delivery: December 2014
  • $1,500USD
    Chef 4 U~ (National Edition)

    Holy shit. I will literally travel anywhere in the United States to cook for you for an entire weekend. You pay travel expenses and I'll stay from Friday to Sunday and will cook 4 meals. You must supply all equipment and ingredients: Meals are conditional on these, but I will pour the entirety of my culinary acumen into this endeavor. Dinner conversation: Digital existence, terror, Gummo, bear attacks, cryptozoology, epigenetics, Discipline & Punish.

    0 out of 2 claimed
    Estimated delivery: December 2014
  • $2,500USD
    Adventure Time~

    I will guide you on an adventure, for real. Choose from backpacking, mountain biking, or bicycle touring. Remember, I've been doing trips like these for nearly a decade and have amassed ~much experience~ and also a large cache of gear, so you will be in good hands. This trip must be used within 2 years of the campaign. You are responsible for our transportation costs. I'll cover the gear, food, and permits. The details of this will need to be hashed out more explicitly.

    0 out of 2 claimed
    Estimated delivery: December 2014
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